I loved and lost her

There was that girl I’d been in love with for more than 7 years. I loved the girl to the extent that whenever I saw her, I’d start feeling uneasy but I didn’t want anything to happen between us without marriage, so I kept pushing her back. I hardly held her hand and in all that time I never hugged her talk more of romance or s*x.
It had not been easy for both of us, I knew. She once wanted to hug me in public and I stopped her, I saw what she felt in her eyes and I regretted what I did.
And one fine day, just like that she got engaged to one of my family members, without any warning nor notification. I still love her and I wish she’d come back to me and I’d do whatever she wants.